Heath Adam Smith
Heath is Joey Smith's brother.
Dear Lee,
Sir, you want to know about me. Well to start with I had a rough life. I
witnessed my step dad kill a man in front of when I was 10. I was
molested when I was 6 and 13.
I have been taking medication for depression and P.T.S.D..
for a long time and at some points in my life I did
street drugs to deal with my problems. I led a very fast life.
I was 20 when I started shooting up drugs. I can say that I never used a
needle after anyone. I was afraid of getting a disease. Well not long
after I started shooting up drugs I was arrested for aggravated robbery on
When I was finally convicted, I was in prison for about a year and I got a dear john letter from her. That is what we call it
when our wife leaves us while we are in here or
when the old lady leaves us for someone else. She left me for my best friend
and I will say I was hurt. I felt like killing myself but I have a son
named Tanner and I love him with all of my heart. He is not by my ex wife
or should I say my soon to be ex wife. His mothers name is Tamara and she
is a very beautiful woman who I love very much and I am planning to get back
together with her when I get out of here.
The jury gave me 10 years for my first felony but it was OK, I'm doing my time
the best I can do. If you want to know what it is like in the
penitentiary I can say it is not fun. The
guards yell at you, get in your face, chase you out, talk about your family and
tell you when and where you can eat and shit. Excuse me for being so
vulgar. Since I have been down I've had men try to force themselves on
me, like try to rape me. I've had men tell me they would kill me for not
giving them what they wanted.
I've got 2 major cases for not obeying a direct order. One for walking away from a fight with some other inmate.
I was working and the guy said he was going to knock me out and I walked
out of work and refused to work with the guy and they wrote me up. The
second one was for telling an officer that he had to feed me before he worked
me and that I was not going to throw my food away .
He was in my face yelling and telling me to throw it in the trash and I
told him no so I got another case. He was casing me and everything.
I can say that I used to not hate people for the color of their skin,
what they were or for any thing like that but they, the guards, make you that
way. I'm not in any gangs but I've had them ask me to join them.
I've been told by some they would kill me but I only live one day at a
time in here.
Since I've been here my mother has had two major surgeries for cancer and has
lost most of her eye sight. They took her drivers license away from her so
I have not seen her in a long time well in years I should say. It hurts
really bad to know she is hurting and I can't be there but I did what I did to
put myself here and there is no getting out of it mow. All I can do is
try to better myself the best I can in here.
I have see fights that you would not believe. I've seen a lot of blood
shed in here and I'm just thankful that it has not been my own. You learn
in here you hear nothing and you see nothing or you can find yourself or dead
really quick. In here I've seen people fight over water.
In here I've seen it all and I will say for all of you that it is not a place
you would want to be. Drugs are not the answer neither is this place so
do the best you can to stay out of here and try to make something out of your
life even if it is just raising your children the right way. Do the best
you can. Take it from me and all of the others in here,
it's not fun to be locked up away from the ones you love. I've got to
hold my son one time and I pray my mother makes it till I get out. Take
it from me it is not fun so do the best you can do.
Sincerely
Heath Adam Smith
© Copyright 2002 Heath Adam Smith
Heath Smith #1008434
Telford Unit
P.O. Box 9200
New Boston, TX 75570-9200
Love by Heath Smith
This is not the place to
be by Heath Smith